I know, I know…big deal. But I’ve never ordered internet before. It’s just always been there. But now I’m in charge of my own destiny. And it starts with my internet service provider. Watch out world!
a few friends when one of them mentioned to the group,
“Jess loves strangers.”
And she said it in such an off-hand way, as if it was just a known fact. I didn’t know that. I really didn’t. Until she said it, and then I started thinking about it.
Strangers to me are like blank pages that I just want to mess up with a million different colours. They’re so exciting. There’s so much potential. They could be anything or anyone. With strangers there’s no fear. A stranger has no control over you because they’re just a stranger. They don’t know you. A stranger can’t hurt you. Strangers are for fun.
I fall in love with everyone I meet. Until it wears off and I inevitably fall out of love with them. That’s what scares me. When strangers stop being strangers and love stays.
Big mistake. I had to fold the page in half so I wouldn’t be able to look at it anymore, even by accident. I had reservations too about printing it and I still did it because I thought I’d be mature and not ignore information available to me. This was a mistake. I wasn’t ready and I immediately regretted it. It’s going to be a while before I’ll let myself look at it again. I’m not mentally ready yet. I was going in with a ‘knowledge is power’ kind of mentality. I was trying to be big and brave, like what I’ve seen in the movies. It’s not for me. Least not yet. Knowledge is scary. I get points for trying though right?
The girl who just can't play it cool 