I can’t even listen to it, I like it so much. I’m pissed that it exists. I used to be happy. I never felt like I was missing anything. Until now. I’m ruined. Now that I have this song in my life, I know I’ll never be happy without it. I am so mad at the song for making me feel this way.
And no matter how many times I listen to it, or how loudly I play it or how vigorously I thrash around to it, it’ll never be enough. Never. Just hearing it isn’t enough. I want to be consumed by it. I want it more and more and more and more until it’s all around me and all over me and inside me through me and it’s suffocating me and I’m choking on it blissfully. A part of me is always unhappy listening to it because I know it’ll end. And all I want is that song all the time, for ever and ever until I die. Really. I want that song to eat me alive, swallow me whole, so that I live inside that song forever and I can be surrounded it by it until it suffocates me to death. I want to die loving that song. I’m in love with that song so much I want it to kill me.
The girl who just can't play it cool 